Note: The "Trooper" in question is not actually in the military. It's a metaphor, people.

July 19, 2007

The Call of the Captive Wild

Just so you don't start thinking, "Jeesh. She sure stresses a lot about this thing with Wine Guy. Maybe she should dump him.." I wanted to share this with you: Tonight I felt those butterflies twitter again. It felt great and it was so simple. Instead of trying to analyze what we are or what we aren't, I just let loose and enjoyed an evening with him.

Actually, it wasn't just any evening, but my absolute favorite activity in the entire world. A trip to the zoo. Not just any zoo...the San Diego Zoo. Not just any trip to the San Diego Zoo...the nighttime zoo. My first nighttime zoo of the summer. And we went with my friend Occam (an excellently chosen name and something we should all consider when overanalyzing our relationships), who gets just as excited about the animals as I do.

I'm surprised it took me so long to take Wine Guy to the zoo. I usually get that out of the way within the first three dates with a guy. Basically I turn into a ten year old at the zoo. I get very energetic, childlike, and feel the compulsive need to point out everything I see as if it's the most amazing thing in the world. And for that moment, it is. I guess when I'm at the zoo, it is me at my most "me-est" and I figure the guy should see it right from the get-go.

I must have not have felt the need to take Wine Guy there, probably since I started out as me from the very beginning of our relationship. Well, until recently anyway.

Let's just say he passed with flying colors and I felt free as a bird (just not one of the birds at the zoo). Not only that, he got pretty excited too and seemed to have a great time. I was a bit nervous when he first told me that zoos made him sad thinking about the animals being cooped up. I get that. But this place is different. At least it is for me. Without wanting to admit it, this trip to the zoo was extremely important in dictating how I would be approaching this relationship from here on out.

After we got home and it was just the two of us, I felt that little skip in my heart when I looked at him as we sipped wine on the patio. That romance was there again. And it wasn't just me. He seemed, well, softer. He even said he missed me and couldn't wait to spend the weekend with me. The kind of things he used to say. It felt nice. I'm sure he felt more at ease because for the first time in a few weeks, I was more at ease. He is highly intuitive and I'm sure he has been feeding off of my negative energy. Or maybe he read yesterday's blog entry.

Either way, I don't care. I feel good. And it didn't hurt that the meerkats were more adorable than ever, the koalas were awake and chomping away on their eucalyptus leaves and we got a terrific glimpse of the perpetually invisible clouded leopard. As Wine Guy stated when my nameless friend and I were raving how "Every trip to the zoo is completely different than the last," we sounded like we could be Zoo spokespeople. Even more so now that it got me back in sync with my boyfriend. Here's to animals in captivity!



Anonymous said...

Wow! How great is nature - those animals were doing just what you need to do - relax, live in the moment, be yourself, and all will be well..Glad your joy has returned

sexagenarian and the city said...

the great pleasure for me in reading you is seeing my's been 26 years (!) since a serious relationship began for me, and that was w. my now ex-husband! so now that at long last something good is beginning, i like seeing all the little ups and downs and the minor & major developments as you & WG discover how you relate to one another.
will see Performer in 5 days, having been apart a month since our first long date.

bailey said...

AAhhh...what a way to go into the weekend. Glad to hear you were feeling all the good things (see they are there, just some times clouded by other life stuff)...can't believe I missed a trip to nighttime at the SD zoo :)

Land Mines said...

I'm so happy that you are enjoying yourself and not worryinng as much. Enjoy all these great moments and don't stress about the ones to come. Glad you were able to mutually enjoy the moment.


ptwelve said...

well, you know that advice to "stop talking about it"?

i heartily endorse that even though, as a girl, all i want to do is talk talk talk about everything.

when it comes to guys, it works much better to do stuff. have activities. throw the frisbee. walk the dog. accomplish something. not sit around t.a.l.k.i.n.g.